They always make a fool out of you

I think i might be obsessed. It's more than a little disturbing.

On the down side, it was her fourth birthday this sunday.

On the plus side, I had a fabulous dinner with a bunch of friends at foothill the other night. Laughed so hard I got stomach cramps. "That's EMBARRASSING!" "Will you guys be here when I get back? I love this table. Not you, just the table."

Air-ea

"So make your decision as you see fit"

The sudden tenderness, the quiet approval and trust renders me shaken. I want to return to sleep. Shrinking distance between the emotional avalanche threatens stable reality. I want to be rooted again, without the stinging pressure repeatedly thrusting me underwater. My spine cracking inaudibly in an attempt to straighten and stand up. We are fragile glass. We exist in the delicate moments of dusk and dawn. Spin us once more, see how we shine.

Let me breathe (again).

The Quiet World

In an effort to get people to look

into each other's eyes more,

and to also appease the mutes,

the government has decided

to allot each person exactly one hundred

and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear

without saying hello. In the restaurant

I point at chicken noodle soup

I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,

proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.

I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn't respond,

I know she's used up all her words,

so I slowly whisper I love you

thirty-two and a third times.

After that, we just sit on the line

and listen to each other breathe.

Jeffrey McDaniel

Emotions Revealed

"...this critic presumed that emotions are words, which, of course, they are not. Words are representations of emotions, not the emotions themselves. Emotion is a process, a particular kind of automatic appraisal influenced by our evolutionary and personal past, in which we sense that something important to our welfare is occurring, and a set of physiological changes and emotional behaviors begins to deal with the situation. Words are one way to deal with our emotions, and we do use words when emotional, but we cannot reduce emotion to words."

-Ekman

One quick...

post before i'm off to berkeley again. I came home last night for mi madre's birthday and really just spend time with the family. Now i'm jetting off again (already)! Next week Vuhu's coming to visit (my roommate insists he brings pho) and the week after, khoitoi's coming! :) :) :) I'm excited to have these pieces of home with me for the weekend(s).

GRAHH! I sort of wish everyone would be home at once so we could all swap stories (or go to different colleges, but all live together).

p.s. i failed my first math quiz. 4 out of 10, huzzah! :'(