"Give me hope for the night"

On days like today, I feel invincible.

This secret, tugging at my lips, is a survivor's story. Becomes a story of endurance.

That I still function.

That I feel joy.

"Guys, can we just all admit, right now, that we were all such a shitshow tonight"

I haven't really talked about what I've been doing so much as how I feel about it, so for a change of pace:

Friday I had a two hour long tea party in the Lab (things look better capitalized, dontcha think) drinking the PuEhr from Far Leaves Tea and then worked on my programming lab with MW, settled plans for the night. The twins came up to watch The King's Speech. I proposed a game of taking a shot every time Colin Firth looks uncomfortable. We agreed we weren't ready for that kind of inebriation within the first 20 minutes. Tangled instead. Btwin mocked me when I cried. All three times. Then back scratches and bonding until the wee hours of the morning.

Last night was unbelievably successful. Well. I did lose another one of my jackets, but that just seems to be trending. Fabray and Dmather blazing and reading 100 years of solitude. German majors and impromptu toasts auf deutsch. Yeah we move with the flow (or at least mo does). Burnss' John Wayne impression. Engineers. Straight drinks. Cockblocks (and marking territory). Dmath giggles like a baby penguin being tickled.

A few gems:

" I am Mary Magdalene! 'Jesus, I AM STONED!' "

" I'm singing. I must be drunk."

"My body is all messy but my brain is fine!"

Now off to do some wood/concrete homework!

Fabray does the best morning after recaps.

We fuck, we sleep, we study, rage.

Yes berkeley.

Handel's Water Suites

OOHBOYOHBOHOHBOY.

The new project's begun!

Flex Core Arc Welding, Shielded Metal Arc Welding ("Stick"), Welding Preheating Standards, Gussets...

My friends, it is glorious.

X-Ray Defrac. machines in the EPS building

Shale slices

Satellite images of the earth.

Berber (Algeria), donuts, Kaberet

Note to self: You owe tea.

Julie-O

Another good day.

Matt, Tey, DMat, AFreund - all fun encounters.

The new project's welding is starting tomorrow. The guys'll be there. I'm so excited to introduce myself to all of them. Hopefully become best buds?

MidPac: a smashing success! Congrats concrete canoe & steel bridge :) I can't wait to work with you next year

Masala Chai Hums

Is it too much to ask,

for his footsteps to sound like sunlight,

& for these cracks to propagate

So woolen hugs don't sink

their teeth into me. The very least

I thought I could ask for was love

No, for those words to be said, &true. A thing

to ground me.

"All advice is autobiographical."

Astute Observation, sir!

"I'm a nudist in the emotional sense and you're a nun stuck in a winter blizzard who still ended up overdressing."

I think he may be smarter than me. This is scary.

On another note.

Confronted some secrets a few days ago.

I know they want to help me but I can't seem to find... something. I don't know how to fix me.

Goals and Fools

Look, other bands, they want to make it about sex or pain, but you know, The Beatles, they had it all figured out, okay?

"I Want to Hold Your Hand."

The first single.

It's effing brilliant, right?... That's what everybody wants, Nicky.

They don't want a twenty-four-hour hump sesh,

they don't want to be married to you for a hundred years.

They just want to hold your hand.