I believe nothing is worthwhile is won through pushing and needling. Nothing long-term. So, for you to say you'll wait patiently until I trust you enough to show you my skeletons, my broken bits? How unexpected. How refreshing. How thoughtful. I mean, really thoughtful.
I think I've just been won over.
To have a decision, even when its a decision rightfully mine, surrendered to my discretion. It's completely taken me by surprise. This really is the last thing I could've seen coming tonight. In all honesty, my respect for you has grown. The past has a way of clinging to my skin, smearing my present and future with an oily unkindness,and I am loathe to think of my life this way - I cannot stop comparing, especially so soon. So what I mean to say, how I make excuses for myself, is that after constantly pursuing and trying to patiently tease the answers out of others, you are welcome in my life. I'm still not going to make this easy for you. Now that I know what you're capable of, I'm terrified to let you close. If you can get past my cynical&bitter self...? You will be an excellent friend.
So. This is for you, den-Sonne, before I know you'll ever get to read this - and keep your chin up, the way you are, you will.
Edit: I think I adore this post because a) its not angsty and b) its about a platonic boy friend and c) i learned something new about someone
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