A Relationship without Boundaries

How very strange.

Except I know that i would maul/hug everyone too, if we had that sort of relationship.

I suppose for now, I'll put up with weird stares and questions about us from people who read too much into things.

the trade-off is worth it!

I like hugs, but I'm too afraid to give them to people who i normally don't give them to (people who receive hugs from me not uncomfortably regularly: 4 6)
how lame.




I want to hug people, I just don't' think they'll accept it.
Plus, I don't' like giving hugs as "greetings"
I like giving hugs because I want to hug you
and because I think you need them.


...is this what they call "friends with benefits" ?


Hmmmmmmmm
I know there's no chance of us ever ever getting together, or liking each other
Despite what all the 20938432048239-48234093846098342 people say at school
So it makes it safe to go to you for comfort.
No chance of you going
"SURPRISE. I'M INTERESTED IN YOU NOT PLATONICALLY"
However, I think i'm cockblocking myself
Which really isn't' a problem, until i think about TNB.
Because TNB probably reads too much into things & the fact that o's the only guy that i feel comfortable mauling
& we talk about everything, esp. girls for him and guy (SINGULAR) for me
which really doenst make us prime couple-material.
people piss me off. i guess if they didnt' keep bringing up the fact that we're close, no one'd think it was out of the ordinary.
JUST CAUSE I'M NOT CLOSE WITH A VAST AMOUNT OF PEOPLE DOESN'T MEAN I LIKE LIKE THE ONES THAT ARE.


sigh.
i like tnb.
sort of.
or i want to give TNB hugs.

But i'm not going to stop giving o hugs just cause people think we have "a thing"
so stupid.

ANYWAYS
I know i wouldnt care about me and o
if TNB was not TNB
Because I believe he thinks me and o are a thing also

grumble grumble
i hate it when a relationship is defined by other people.
we are who we are, why are you catagorizing us
maybe this is something you've never seen before, bitches. (just kidding, i'm just being difficult)
because we're not going to get together. ever. please. effing. jesus. no.


I'm not going to write you love poems.
This is going to be a love song
that starts with you
and ends with me
like a song come undone.

But I do like TNB.

Yum, i love cockblocking myself.
But this i what I wanted
I wanted a challenge to find me, not for some random ass guy to suddenly find me.
The risk is too big when they leave